rainy day....

its is raining............
we always heard abt ppl say rainy will juz bring unhappy, sad feeling to us....
i think its rite.....
i like rainy day since i was small....
becoz last time my house is made of something like atap....
so, when everytime its raining, the 'tic tac, tic tac' make me fell very nice...
as my house is in kampung last time, we din have anything like air conditional, juz have fan,
so when it is raining, all of us feel very happy....the cold wind is very comfortable....
besides, with the tic tac sound, i always fell asleep easily at night....

as i said juz now, my house is made up of something like atap, so it will "lou shui" when it is raining cats n dogs....
i still remember that we must take many bowl to collect the water....
very funny rite....when whole of the family members busy to collect the water....try to imagine n c...^^

but....
today...when i "watching" to the rain....i feel some ......伤感
becoz.....it let me knew.....we cant back to last time....
all of us cannot go back to last time.....it will juz happen in our dream n memory...
i really miss that time...when my dad still alive.....
when my bro still study.....

juz now i am watching a taiwan program.....
they r few fathers....
n someone ask them n a girl...
is daddy more "sayang" daughter or mummy??
they ans....daddy will more sayang daughter.......
yes...it is rite......it make me think abt my dad too.....
i am the only daughter in my house....
although my dad is someone bored, but.....he treat very good.....
i dunno how to say it.....
i still remember that my dad always call me " cha boh po".....
n he like to hit my piku....^^
he also will buy something i want although he ngap ngap ngap on his mouth.....=)
ya! i still remember.....he likes me to kiss him...but...i din do it since i was 5....i think so....

papa, i dunno why...
today i'm so miss u....
becoz of the rain... had bring me back to last time......
anyway.....i know, now u r in a very good "situation".....
i wonder have something"报梦" in this world???
but i try to believe it....becoz i have dream abt u r having a healthy body, n look so.....SMART! ^^
but....i dream abt u buy 'rokok' in seven eleven oh.......^^
anyway......i want to say "爸爸, i love u"
i will take care of myself de ! muack !