dun leave ur comment here for this post

i really dunno what i'm scare about.....
i'm really useless, when i have changed???
where the choo yee ching last time???
why??? i have changed!!!!
i lost all the thing i have!!
confidence, courage, my heart!!!
at here, i doesn't mean love, but studies
last time, i will set the time to study,
i will tell myself, its enough!!!
its enough to play more, its the time to study, working and somemore.......
but now????
yes! i told mysef not to watch tv again, not to play more, but
my heart not here!!!!
i really felt that i'm useless,
i can't manage my stress like last time i did
i dunno what the thing i actually worried about
i tried to give up!!!!
why.........why i will be like that?
oh my dear~~
like the teacher said, i become the ppl she said,
who always worried about the problem but not to solve it
i really want to cry......i'm so useless now....
why?everytime i'm writing my blog, i also cried....everytime...
that too many time, i cried but not wrote it out here,
its become uncountable number....
cried 4 dad, for mom, for myself,for my studies...
last time, i never cry for studies......NEVER
even i get the worst result
ya, its same now, i will never cry for exam, never
but, i cried for studying here....
is chung ling too stress???
stress until i really totally not confident to myself,
i din believe myself,
i'm trying to give up, i'm trying to run away from these!!!!
please........what can i do????
how i can find the yeeching last time back???

to all my friends, my dear friends....
dun leave any comment for me, dun try to cheer me up...
i hate to listence it, pls dun if you are my friend!!!
i dun want anyone help!!!!!!!!
i want to clam down by myself..........
i want to find it back by myself...........
your advice or comment just make me feel more stress!!!
please............let me alone okay????
that why, i really dun want to talk...to anyone of my friend........at school or at msn
dun, dun talk to me, dun ask me about my thing, dun care me....
I DUN WANT!!!!!!!!!!
pls, dun care me...i scared.....i wonder why i'm scaring.........
scare anything.......

i promise here
i will be better!!!
if u really my friend n care about me,
juz support me morally at back
in your heart enough, but dun give me console, okay?
我自己跌倒，我一定要自己爬起来！
你们对我的安慰，只会让我更麻木，忘了痛，变本加厉
我，一定要痛过！
我会自己爬起来的！！！
阳光总在风雨后，我相信你！