i'm not a perfect daughter...

now is 12:35....
i still didnt sleep yet...
i'm reading my email....
i have read a message like below....
'被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會感恩，因為當白天夠亮，太陽就是多餘的'。

有一則猶太故事說，有一天，有人問一位老先生，太陽和月亮哪個比較重要。
那位老先生想了半天，回答道：「是月亮，月亮比較重要。」
為什麼呢？「因為月亮是在夜晚發光，那是我們最需要光亮的時候，而白天已經夠亮了， 太陽卻在那時候照耀。」
你或許會笑這位老先生糊塗，但你不覺得很多人也是這樣嗎？
每天照顧你的人，你從不覺得有什麼，若是陌生人這樣對你，你就認為他人真好；
你的父母、你總覺得理所當然，甚至還有得嫌；
一旦外人為你做出類似行為，你就受寵若驚，你就會很感激。
這不是跟「感激月亮，否定太陽」一樣糊塗嗎？

still have one more example...

有個女孩跟媽媽大吵了一架，氣得奪門而出，決定再也不要回到這個討厭的家了！
一整天，她都在外面閒逛，肚子餓得咕嚕咕嚕叫，但偏偏又沒帶零用錢出來，可又拉不下臉回家吃飯。
一直到了晚上，她來到一家麵攤旁，聞到了陣陣的香味，真是好想吃一碗，但身上又沒帶錢只能不住的吞口水。
忽然，老闆親切的問：「小姐，妳要不要吃麵啊？」
她不好意思的回答：「嗯！可是……我沒有帶錢……」
老闆聽了大笑：「哈哈，沒關係，今天就算老闆請客吧！」
女孩簡直不敢相信自己的耳朵，她坐下來。
不一會兒，麵來了，她吃得津津有味，並說：「老闆，你人真好！」
老闆說：「哦？怎麼啦？」
女孩接著回答：「對啊！我們素不相識，你卻對我那麼好，不像我媽，根本不了解我的需要和想法，真氣人呢！」
老闆又笑了：「哈，小姐，我才不過給妳一碗麵而已，妳就這麼感激我，那麼妳媽媽幫妳煮了二十幾年的飯，妳不是更應該感激她嗎？」
被老闆這麼一講，女孩頓時有如大夢初醒，眼淚瞬間奪眶而出！顧不得還剩下的半碗麵，立刻飛奔回家。
才到家門前的巷口，就遠遠的看到媽媽，焦急的在門口四處張望，她的心立刻揪在一起！有一千 句、一萬句的對不起想對媽媽說。
還沒來得及開口，只見媽媽已迎了上前：「唉呦！妳一整天跑去那裡了啊？！來，進來把手洗一洗，吃晚飯了。」
這天晚上，這個女孩才深刻體會到媽媽對她的愛太陽一直都在，人就忘了它給的光亮，當親人一直都在，人就會忘了他們給的溫暖；一個被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會去感恩，因為白天已經夠亮了，太陽不是多餘的嗎?

tis is the message which sent by my fren....
i think some of these ppl will touched of this...
of course, me too.....
sometime my mom call me to do something...i always say wait wait wait...
lastly my mom do it...
4 me, last time i din bother my mom all abt these....
but after my dad have sicked until now, she done everthing by herself...
although something she not so good like driving...
n i always kap kap kap beside her...
no one will happy while kap kap kap by someone....me too...
but i dunno y...
i cannot say softly that time....
i have some idea that i have kap kap kap over...
but.....dunno...

but now....i'm still not a perfect daughter...
no, i'm a useless daughter....
when my mom is scolding me 4 something i still very pek chek...
i wonder when i becum tis...
i wonder y i have changed???
last time i very nice....i will follow my mom order or hear to her 'advice', i can stand last time!
but now...i very upset when i heard she is kap kap kap'ing' me...
i found that my mom also changed after my dad passed away...
she became............very.....i dunno how to explain it....
like a small thing she can scold 4 whole day.....
i think tis is becoz the burden on her shoulder is became heavy...
yes...4 me....i will like that too....
lets think abt last time....my mom only in-charge in cooking, doing housework...
she never worry abt MONEY this thing....
everytime we went 4 super, juz took money from my dad....
but now all become different....
my house now.......very hard to get better...i think i juz can say like this....
act my house's income is not that bad...
but...all this is caused by my bro....y....y....WHY!!!
why he want to do that stupid thing!!!
these is everyone knowledge!!!
why....why until now u still can change a bit....
i know u have the lessonalr...but...ur 本性still didnt change....
u still like that....do u think u r rich???
y make us lost the most precious thing which our dad n ah gong gave us!!
4 me...the thing is the valueblest thing from our dad...
i cry 4 that thing not 4 the money...

do u know....every month....our home's spending is how much??
our home can survive becoz 4 the income.....
now???i dunno wat we eat on the future....
do u know, i'm not hating u....u r my bro....
how i upset, u also my bro...
but...try to help our home ok??
do u know, our mom is very pity...
actually she is the happiness woman in the world, she never have anything 烦恼...
now...she is worry abt ur life, ur health...anything abt us....her son n daughter....
i dunno how to say...juz sometime i will 心痛...
now....i really very need money....not i 贪钱，becoz i din have saving be4....i dunno how i live when i'm study outside....
yes....fionn say i look like ah sam becoz she found that my purse have the supermarket voucher...
but u know...the thing now very expensive???
i cannot learn from my mom that she did look at the price n buy vegetables in market....
hey, my mom buy thing from the market didnt ask abt the price one!
(sorry 4 using a wrong english,but i'm trying not to use wrong english)
these also not my mom false...becoz she is "seng" by my dad last time....
do u know, wat the rice price now??? jati rice is RM25 at tesco....
be4 this, the rice of other brand can go up until RM 30-RM49
oh my god!!!very expensive when the petrol is rise....
u ah!! fionn tan!u also the happiness girl in the world....
u know Darlie RM 6 ones??
yooo, u ah.... really de....u will know all abt these when u grow up....
but i hope u will not found that like my situation....
my situation make me changed like tis....
saw chin also....but saw chin is grow up in a 'not so rich' family la...

okay...overall....act the message still having something at the behind...

"好好想想吧!希望你看了这封信能好好地给你爸妈一个最贴心的拥抱^^
相信我吧！别小看这简单的拥抱哦！"

hope who of u have saw this post....try to 感谢ur parents....
they work hard everyday, lastly....they give u all the thing they earned.....
not just money...is their heart....
didnt have a parent will hate their son....becoz....the son is came out from the mother's abdomen after 9 month....
i have watched many program that talk abt the mom...
every mother say....their son n daughter is their spirit...is another of her....
try... try to accept our parent....

i'm also learning to accept her....
becoz...sometime when my mom mood is no good, i will automatically do housework like sweap floor n mop floor when she is taking a broom n mop...^^
but.....still not enough to be a perfect daughter, or i can say that....
i din done the responsibility to be a daughter....
i'm sorry mom.......